It’s already 6 months into the year 2025, and I have noticed my external drive is intensely craving more momentum. My mind is full of possibilities, but my body is trying to catching the wave of the tide. Imagine a person or sail boat for better use, are hit by strong tidal waves. What happens is that person or boat from a distance view will appear to be stuck in one spot, while the waves are demanding a different direction.
Push through the fear
The Unknown
It’s the fear of the unforeseen future and lack of direction towards what action, that it opens the door to major responses that will decide your next step. For instance, procrastination because so many ideas going through your mind at once. Impulsive, due to the fact that you may need to act fast. Last but not least, Avoidance from the idea that the problem will go away on its on.
As a residents in St. Louis, MO I can attest to never experiencing something so traumatic, a EF4-5, a tornado that literally destroyed everything in its path. Gratefully, my family and home is okay, however, there are an enormous amount of others that can’t say the same.
I was resting In my bed, when a weather emergency alert ‼️ pinned my phone. “TORNADO WARNING! Take shelter..” Apart of me didn’t want to take it serious, because what are the changes my city will get hit with a massive tornado? I thought. Being, I didn’t hear any sirens 🚨 I decided to take a look outside, it was quiet and the trees were still. At that exact moment I began to get a little concerned, so I ordered my kids to go to the basement and take shelter.
As we took safety in the restroom in our basement, I could hear the winds picking up. Fear, began to creep its way in causing me to call my children’s dad. Upon him answering the call, I asked him what he was doing? And he responded saying “I think I’m in the middle of a tornado.” “WHAT?!? CAN YOU GET TO SAFETY?” I yelled out loud. “OH, SHIT MY CAR!” Was his last words before the phone went silent and all I could hear was heavy wind.
Feeling so helpless in that moment, I just began to Thank Jesus. I hung up when I notice I wasn’t getting a response and my kids looked at me with worry in their eyes asking “Is daddy okay? I’m scared.” They said. My oldest, who is 8 years old said mom I done prayed like four times. I told her that I was praying also. My 4 year old, then said mom can we play God music, so we began to praise and worship till the time the warning was said to end.
We had 15 minutes left, when I received a call from their dad. When I answered, he told me he was just in a tornado and how everything around him was destroyed. From homes, stores, cars, trees and poles down,etc. and nothing looked the same. I couldn’t believe it and wanted to know where he was, so he FaceTime me and my heart sank to my stomach. For some reason, my eyes still couldn’t believe the street known as Kings Highway looked horrifically damaged, even though it was right in front of my eyes.
All I could think about was how grateful I was that he made it out alive and with just some minor damages to his car. Especially after seeing a large tree laying on top of a car and it’s air bags out, him and I both praying no one was in that car. We ended the call so he could attend to the present moment he was faced with and be of service if needed. I then began to check social media to see if anyone was live are posted any video. The first video I came across was a lady walking around crying and showing her brick home completely destroyed. At that exact moment my heart went out to her and my eyes swelled with tears.
I began to praise God it was her house and not her life. I knew I didn’t know how she was feeling because I still had my home. But I knew what it felt like to lose a love one from a natural cause. Even though I don’t know her, I believe she has family and friends that love her. What a horrible pain that would’ve been for them and I wouldn’t wish that on anyone. So I was very grateful for her life, even though she only saw what once was her house and livelihood. I saw a miracle, knowing that many likely died or seriously got injured from the storm.
Call of Service 📢
So, I live in a traditional ranch style home with at least five really tall trees in the backyard and one large tree in the front. Anytime there’s heavy wind a branch off the tree likely knocks the power out. And imagining a tornado 🌪️ hitting my home, I knew then it could’ve been me out doors with no where to go or possible dead. Being that I’m struggling financially, and soon will be unemployed due to trump laying off federal workers. On top of currently going through an estate court battle, and can’t access any resources regarding my home. I know alive or not my life would’ve felt completely over.
As I felt called to help, I knew I couldn’t financially. So, I was guided to spread awareness, love, compassion and unity. If you are reading this and live in or near areas that were affected, I ask that you find it in your heart to assist with healing those communities. However, you are able to get out in the community to support is much needed. If you not able to help financially like me, or physically then join me by liking, reposting or commenting on this post. Small gestures matters too. Thank you! And may the Lord bless you ✨
Leader-The person who leads or commands a group, organization, or country.
Follower– A person who moves or travels behind someone or something.
Known as Leaders:
Boss
Parents
Teachers
Politicians
Known as Followers:
Children
Students
Journalist
Activist’s
“Every true leader is a true follower.”
To successfully make an impact or change, Leaders need assistance from others to help build production and share ideas. When both roles work together, doors open to limitless opportunities for growth and development.
Be the change you want to see in the world
The world is full of many people, that daily are just trying to find their way. Regardless if it’s consciously or unconsciously not far behind will be a ripple effect from their impact.
“People buy into the leader before they buy into the vision.”
Most times, when people go out into the world it’s probably because they are seeking help or guidance regarding a matter at hand. For instance, they schedule a job interview. To be prepared they look over their job description, website, even the reviews. Likely, preparing to present themselves as a known follower of that company. Once, the questions begin, the interviewee will then present characteristics that can take them from a follower to a leader of the company if giving the opportunity.
A major leadership role of the interviewer, is to be able to identify or recognize talent when it presents itself. However, not all can, and that doesn’t mean that the interviewee wasn’t qualified. Instead, look at it like that was suppose to happen to push them into their purpose to becoming a natural leader.
“Real leadership is about transforming limitations into possibilities.”
In life there will always be someone or something trying to stop you from learning your full potential. In order to learning you have to be willing to follow, and when you least expect you’ll notice how many were following your lead.
From experience, I’ve learned not to follow and choose not to lead. I just simply to allow myself to be.
Share a story about someone who had a positive impact on your life
Growing up my dad raised me, while my mother chose the streets over motherhood. When I became old enough to understand, my dad would always tell me that God gave him me to save his life. Some time, before I was born my dad was diagnosed with prostate cancer. He shared with me, how tuff life was for him at that time and how a huge part of him wanted to give up. Then I was created and he knew that was God giving him a reason to fight.
At the age of 2, is when my dad took sole custody of me. Due to my mother repeated habits of leaving me and my siblings in the house for weeks at a time alone with no parental supervision. And how my dad would find out is by the hospital calling him about me constantly being dehydrated. By me having to stay in the hospital for a couple of weeks after I was born, due to drugs being in my system. My dad seen I was malnourished, and refused to let me die even though he was.
From the day I moved in with my dad, he had me in church seven days a week. Being that he was a deacon in the church, and what you’d probably consider the maintenance man. We were forever having to go to the church, even if there was no service. As a child, that was everything to me watching my dad do construction and heavy duty work. The sight of something broken, or deteriorating being brought back to life even if it was a struggle brought me joy. I knew my dad hands were blessed as if he could fix anything, others knew it too which was why he was the one they always called.
When I got older, the more I became familiar with the world outside of church. That’s when my dad character was magnified in my life and choices. I remember things like him teaching me how to be independent, he would tell me that he didn’t want me to have to depend on others. If I was upset that someone had said something negative about me or called me out my name. He would asked me why I’m so mad? When what comes out there mouth condemns them not me. He’d go as for as asking me what’s the name on my birth certificate? Then state if they not addressing me by my name they not talking to me and there’s no need to get upset. Making sure he ends the conversation by reminding me to be careful with my words because that will affect me.
Before my dad passed away, my mom died 2 years before from an overdose. During that time, I started to notice friends, family and randoms were eager to see me fail. I had to swallow a tuff pill, and that was knowing I no longer had a support system. I found myself lonely, afraid, and insecure for the first time. Then when I isolated myself, that’s when things started to change for the better. I started to heal, gain my confidence back, learn who I am not just physically, and mentally but spiritually mostly. It wasn’t that people all of a sudden hated me, it was more so there darkness was afraid of my light. I stand on Love & Truth and the world feed off hate and lies. Reminding me that I’m not of this world but here to make an impact like my dad did. Till this day he is remembered for his peaceful state of being. Nothing really bothered him, and if it did you wasn’t able to tell because he was constantly in God’s word.
Now, I’m beginning to find myself becoming more and more unbothered. Happier when I’m alone and more focused on building a community around spreading Love even when it hurts. God did it, so can I. What I lost didn’t cause me to lose, instead it made me more determined to win. You’re probably saying to yourself win what? And my answer to you is win souls.
My journey is just beginning, and my story is now being told. So If your interest in knowing more, make sure you subscribe to my blog. Feel free to share your story as well, because even though you may feel alone you’re not. There is always someone who will relate, guide, and support you. They are what I consider to be angels in the flesh. It’s important to never turn a blind eye, it will soon cost you your reality.
I was sitting in my bed, when the clock read 3:26am. For some reason I can’t sleep, so I decided to work on my website. So, I began to edit my blog, and I came across this prompt. The first time I read it I found myself at a 60 second pause. Then I went on to reading people’s comments to check out their blogs. While doing so, I came across a lady’s blog who is currently writing a book about grief & loss, and as I went on to read her introduction to the story I couldn’t help but feel as if I was starting the therapy I have been reluctant to attend. At that moment I was led to respond to this prompt, now let me tell you a story that will align with my answer the question.
About 3 years ago I lost my best friend, who was my father. He passed away from cancer, and a couple of years before that I lost my mother to a drug overdose. In the mist of all of that taken place, I started to lose friends and family, even my marriage was falling apart. Everything around me seemed to be dark to me, and I couldn’t see my way out. I was consumed by fear, abandonment, loneliness, anger, grief, and many other things. I felt lost because the only person I knew to turn to in times like this was taken from me. I meet a woman at work who was heavy on her faith walk, and at that time I was not to fund of going to church due to my past experiences. However, her and I had become really good friends to the point we started going to church together, even on trips to major church conferences. Now the last time I went to church with her, we were visiting someone else’s church and a lady she introduced to me attended that church. At that time, I was going through so much mentally and I wasn’t sure if I was gone to make it. I had just had a baby and was left to raise her on my own. My mind, body and soul were drained I felt depleted and uncapable of raising another child as a single mother. Especially, during the darkest time of my life so I started to plan for adoption. Which I realized later, was just me acting off false emotions but at the time felt real to me.
Now the lady that my friend introduced to me got wind of my struggles and she agreed to care for my baby for as much time as I needed. Even her and a few members from the church came by to help me get my home in order to help clear my head. So, one of the nights she had my baby it was bible study at the church, and I would go if I knew she would be there that way I could spent time with my baby. As I was enjoying service and taking in some food for thought, the speaker called for alter prayer before dismissal. I sat still holding on to my sleeping child, as I watched majority of the people even my older two go kneel at the altar. Something in my spirit told me to go to the alter and kneel in prayer with my babies. Which I did, after laying my baby on her blanket which I spread out on the empty sets and asked for assistance from those who were close by in keeping an eye out for her. As I approach the alter, I noticed I was a little hesitant to kneel. But I did. Soon as I did, a lady who was kneeling to the left of me immediately started sharing with me a vision that she had just seen regarding me. She told me, that she saw a red rose bush, which is my favorite bush because every home me and my father lived in had one in the front yard. Anyways she said the bush had one rose, and it was limped over as if it was dying but it still had its leave and color it just wasn’t as vibrant. Then, she went on telling me she saw God pluck the rose from the bush and place it in the palm of his hands. God then began to give the rose a few caressing strokes then placed it back into the bush. Once God placed the rose back into the bush, it had then become full of many vibrant red roses. For months, I had prayed and meditated on what she saw and was seeking clarity being at the time I had no idea what it meant and neither did she.
Now, with all that being said. To answer the question, What gives me direction in life? I would have to say it’s God and his holy spirit. God will use people, things and places then leaves it’s up to us to know his voice. I know everything works together for the Good of those who love God and or called by his name. And if we are not connected to him, we can easily be misled. One of the scriptures read “For my ways is not your ways and my thoughts are not your thoughts. As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways.” Isaiah 55:8-9. So, now I am determined daily to always thank God for ordering my steps and directing my path with the light of his everlasting Love and Holy Spirit.
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